It's just what I do!

I continue to learn about myself as I grow up, and as I grow older. I honestly feel like I lost some quality traits that I valued along the way, and those I kinda want to get back. For instance, I am pretty confident now, but I used to be much more confident. I used to be a great public speaker, and now I think I'm good, but I talk so fast that I stumble over words and thoughts. I have come to find that when I love I love hard. When I like, I like hard. When something annoys me, it really annoys me. I like my life in the grey area a lot, but I also live feeling strongly, which makes me feel alive. I am my own toughest critic, which I like, because I'm aware of my potential and my vision when it comes to many areas of my life; I know when I fall short of that, and in a healthy way (most times) I keep myself in check. I thoroughly enjoy all of the special people in my life, and I get a lot of my energy from them. A simple conversation with the right person can change my whole perspective and aura. I love to know that someone whom I regard highly is thinking of me. When I miss, I miss hard as well. I really miss my sister right now, and several other family members including my mom and my cousin Nina. Now that some of my closest friends in life are spread out throughout the United States, sometimes I just want to go back to the days when we all lived in one place and we could hang out at the drop of a dime. At the same time, I beam with pride at their individual and collective successes, and look forward to what the future holds for us all.

I felt bad that I not written a blog in such a long time, but I know that I'm not a regular blogger. Maybe one day I will be, but a lot of the reflection that I do, I do in my own head as I go throughout my day.